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md21 wrote on 07/13/16 at 14:49:16:SilverMK wrote on 07/13/16 at 11:27:19:md21 wrote on 07/13/16 at 09:11:29:Good job guys
Silver or matt, you're like the king of having huge PR to BS differences lol I know, it's terrible but awesome at the same time. I think it is because I am naturally shaky and it just adds to the nerves of getting a really good time. But when I'm not nervous I can just wring out awesome times. I almost always get new PRs and BSes whenever I get to the point of not giving a shit, it takes awhile to get there though. I usually try watching youtube or anime so I am forced to not pay attention to the game once I start getting annoyed. ^I don't know if any of that makes sense, but it is what I understand, so. I understand it. Sometimes I find if I don't take my time with a post, I think it can be like a puzzle to try to understand, and for others too. But when we talk or write, as long as you're doing it, it almost always brings out what you're intending to say. Anyways, so why is it awesome? Does the awesomeness lie in the not giving a shitness?  I've always found that you should never take anything too seriously, but still give it the time and practice it needs if you want to accomplsh somehing. As long as I'm relaxed I can do a ton of shit. Which is actually how I got into some of my favorite activities, such as Mario Kart and drumming. The awesome thing about not giving a shit is that you are relaxed, you know what you are doing, you know what you need to accomplish, and it starts to turn into an easier experience for most whatever you are doing. Of course it is also my personality that really helps me out as well. With no intention to brag, I am, in my eyes, exceptionally intellegent, I can absorb lots of information, have somewhat of a audiographic memory, which can a burden at times I must say, and incredible hand-eye coordination. So if I get enough practice in I can just do the same exact thing over and over again without paying attention. What holds me back though is my, and my entire family's, genetic disposition to anxiety and depression. With all of the information I can absorb I already have a terrible disposition to being overrun by thoughts, adding in my anxiety just adds even more to the problem. Playing Mario Kart helps me get my minds off things, but if I am having a hard time TTing I get annoyed and swamped by thoughts, so I am forced to lose focus. Over the years I have been getting better at controlling it and being able to do more things, but I still find it easier for me to just not pay attention to what I am doing and just get lost in time. Which is why I am able to go on very long MK TT sessions, I usually go on for a 4 hour average if I feel motivated. But it is also why I don't get full good runs. Sorry for the long post, hopefully some of you read this whole thing 
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