I have mixed feelings. What you did was unjustifiable and undeniably an act of deception against an entire community for the purposes of self-aggrandizement. On the other hand, it's a symptomatic outreach for recognition in a forum where you feel you share common qualities with people and that provides you a facsimile of comfort.
I'm not a man to pass judgment on any other man, nor do I believe anyone has the right to. However, your first responsibility is not to justify it by implicating unrelated personal issues as some sort of excuse for it. You could have had just as much of a role in the community playing simply to improve upon your own personal bests, and that alone would have given you satisfaction and every right to be an honorary part of the community that you went to such lengths to secure the admiration of.
However, following this, it's difficult for me to give any advice except but to truly reflect on the ramifications of this and how they represent a big problem, a problem that you are aware of allthewhile contributing to. I think you're a cool guy Myles, although we occupy quite opposite ends of many spectrums and beliefs. I just hope you've learned your lesson and can prove to us that you are capable of performing at a high level regardless, through good old fashioned practice.
I believe you have it in you. I think that your biggest problem may be dwelling on the facts about yourself that you aren't proud of. Your actions are no way to compensate for that, and I know you don't need me to tell you that. You've given me legitimate help in the past and if it weren't for you I'd never have hit a god time. You can be an asset to the community. But now you've created a nearly insurmountable challenge - backpedaling against the public opinion that sees you as caustic. I can hardly say I blame them, but I really wouldn't want you to be ostracized from a place where there are people who consider you with regard despite every disagreement and misunderstanding between.
Please consider doing something to restore any modicum of faith in your worth as a staple in this humble community. I'd like to see this have a happy ending.. otherwise, I don't know who I really can trust anymore.
On the other hand, the selfish side of me does feel a tiny bit better about my own mediocre skill now, so one positive thing I can say is

for that
Quote:Leone wrote on 02/16/15 at 12:30:34:Zurreco wrote on 02/16/15 at 12:25:46:ShadowOfMyles wrote on 02/07/15 at 08:15:29:I'm a 30 year-old virgin. I've never even kissed a girl.
That might have been a spliced run, tho
Now that's one spliced run I'm all for